This little piece of paper is my sanity right now. "If I can make it through today, I can test tomorrow." Then I play the game again the next day. Every day past the first starred day is one that the test will be that much more accurate. For my doctor I HAVE to test … Continue reading X marks the spot.
This is one bit of conventional wisdom that isn't a lie. I've fucked myself, royally, I'm afraid and while I wait for phone calls to help me (or not)... all I can do is expel my anxiety by writing. There's a checklist of things that have to be done for a "Therapeutic Donor Insemination". We … Continue reading Timing is everything.
I've heard of nursing homes for the elderly and infirm called "God's Waiting Room." I feel like I'm there now, in God's Waiting Room. My cat is still here, she's having a good few days... I love when she cuddles voluntarily. But, I'm waiting for God's moment when S/He says it's time for Lily to … Continue reading Time is ticking.
The week is finally here and I'm counting wake-ups like a child looking forward to Christmas morning. I never had that tradition as a kid, Partner introduced me to the habit and I like it. Wake-ups are easy to count and on that last one, it's the big day! So, I have three more wake-ups … Continue reading Counting the wake-ups.